need it even exist?
so perhaps not at all, not at all, to nothing, to nothing at all, no, not so.
It means something only to oneself, but only to oneself does it never matter anyway.
This is. This, here, right now, as it is, not as it will be, or as it has been, or how you wish it to be. If you could only stay with this....wouldn't it be so much easier?
So things seem irrelevent...life seems stagnant; dwelling too long on such temporary responses. no no no no why must it seem so wrong? Words and feelings simply cannot always mix; perhaps for the best, but for which that is in favor of i can't even begin to fathom.
Everytime you type in here it feels as though life is drained a little more of its purpose.
Why why why?
Why must I seem so? Why must i be so? Why must i feel so for all of this?